Just My Journal

One YouTube, I watched Jenn Im's My Perfect Imperfections Tag.  The Imperfections My Uneven Eyelids - I'm Chinese American and I have monolids. And my monolids themselves, I've never had a problem with. I've never looked at my eyes and thought, "it'd be nice if I had a crease." Or, "I need eyelid surgery." But the fact that my eyelids were uneven got very apparent when I started to wear makeup in college. Specifically, it's easier to see the lash line on the _ eye, which means I need more eyeliner on my other eye to make them look even.  My Body (Calves and Arms) - I am not very tall. I like to say I'm 5'2" on a good day. Some people who are shorter are proportionally petite. I am not. I was actually supposed to be taller but once I got my first period that stunted my growth. I think if I grew to the height I was "supposed" to be, my arms and legs would look proportionate. My arms just don't look as toned as...

There are plenty of things in the world that piss me off, these are a couple of them. This article describes how Jessica's rapist still has visitation rights to her sons. She was raped multiple times when she was a teenager and now has two sons. In addition, she miscarried once and another son died due to "a disease common in cases of incest." Her rapist and step-uncle was never convicted, despite DNA evidence. How in the world is someone not convicted despite DNA evidence ! Especially if this is happening multiple times. And for her family to not only allow this to happen, but to encourage it, is disgusting. Apparently she was also forced to marry her step-uncle. In Alabama, rapists still have their rights, which is insane! So the judge told Jessica, with each visitation denied, she would have to spend 48 hours in jail. So you're telling me you want a pedophile rapist to have visitation rights to two young boys? Guess I'll never visit Alabama. Shall we m...

I tried out the  Fetch Rewards App last week and this is my first impression. How Does It Work? Fetch is based on a point system, and once you reach 3,000 points you can redeem them. Once I hit 5,000 points, I redeemed them for a $5 Amazon gift card. It was easy, the Fetch App can e-mail you the code and then you just enter it into your Amazon account like any other gift card. If you don't scan your receipt immediately, no worries. You have a couple days to scan them in. You do so just by taking a picture of your receipt. Got a long one? Just snap your receipt in segments to get everything in. You can snap pics from any store: Target , Walgreens, Pick 'N Save, etc... I've tried all of the above and I gotten points from all three. Will I continue to use the Fetch Rewards App? 100% and if you're interested in it, try using my referral code 4XXUF and we'll both get 2,000 points immediately. I wouldn't be recommending it if I didn't try and enjoy i...

Safety . It's a common word around the hospital. You may have heard the phrase, "do no harm." It's because doctors and nurses have the potential to do a lot of harm. Prevention of falls, infections, medication errors... Patient safety is huge. But while the patient may be the first person someone thinks of when they hear the words "safety" and "hospital" together, what about the caregiver? During January of this year. nurse practitioner Carlie Beaudin was found frozen beneath her car, beat to death. And in April, Lynne Truxillo died from complications after being attacked from a patient. Working in the healthcare field puts nurses on the front lines. It makes us vulnerable. And the patient's we take care of put us at the biggest risk. Verbal and physical abuse are a reality. Cursing, swearing, hitting, biting, rape... It's not acceptable. Ever. Being a nurse isn't a safe profession. In a year, 1 in 5 nurses or nursing assistan...

Thanks for coming in at 11 PM while we're trying to make your mother comfortable enough to sleep. Thank you for coming to see your mom for 30 minutes, I've just been here for hours. Making sure she gets pain pills without oversedating her. It's been a problem in the past, and I don't want to create another one for her now. She can't move that well on her own. So it's not a problem when a nurse or a nursing assistant use a gait belt and a Sara Steady just to get your mom from the bed to the chair and back again. Actually, two people are needed just for this one task to make sure she's safe. And sometimes two people are needed to reposition her every two hours - in reality even more frequently because she's so uncomfortable laying down or sitting.  She gets anxious. So anxiety meds have been ordered and changed for her. But it's not enough. So she asks me to hold her hand. She gets lonely, so we called the chaplain, volunteer services, and art ...

"Did you hear about another school shooting today?" They asked me. "Ten people, Texas." I didn't even flinch when they told me. And for the record, no I didn't know. I just keep watching Netflix on my laptop. Did you read that? The fact that another 10 people are dead due to gun violence didn't even phase me. I've become numb to news like that. And it's as if it has to happen close to home for me to even care. But I don't want that to be the reason I care. Because how tragic would that be? At least for the people who live here. I'm so sick of thoughts and prayers . While they're good intentions, that's all they are - intentions. Where's the action ? I know it's out there, somewhere. I just wish I could get back to the place where a school shooting, or any shooting, actually mattered to me.

"Do you want to wait in the car? Or do you want to help start the fire?" Nic asked. It was a cool December night, and the prospect of starting a fire didn't enthuse me. "I'll stay here," I said. As he walked away, I grabbed my phone to update my roommates. It took him a couple of minutes before he came back. Enough to tell them how it was a weird date and how he's nice but I'm not sure yet. The fire was nice, warm. Two chairs were set up, side by side. Nic put a lantern on a tree branch to light our way back. It didn't take long for us to kiss under the stars. It was intense, the kind of kiss where explosions go off in the background. The scent of bonfire lingered long after we left his backyard, and as the fire died out ours didn't. He lead me from the fire pit back the house where we spent the night in the basement. Well, most of the night. I left at 3 AM because I had class the next day, not to mention my roommates were wondering where I...