Just My Journal

One YouTube, I watched Jenn Im's My Perfect Imperfections Tag.  The Imperfections My Uneven Eyelids - I'm Chinese American and I have monolids. And my monolids themselves, I've never had a problem with. I've never looked at my eyes and thought, "it'd be nice if I had a crease." Or, "I need eyelid surgery." But the fact that my eyelids were uneven got very apparent when I started to wear makeup in college. Specifically, it's easier to see the lash line on the _ eye, which means I need more eyeliner on my other eye to make them look even.  My Body (Calves and Arms) - I am not very tall. I like to say I'm 5'2" on a good day. Some people who are shorter are proportionally petite. I am not. I was actually supposed to be taller but once I got my first period that stunted my growth. I think if I grew to the height I was "supposed" to be, my arms and legs would look proportionate. My arms just don't look as toned as...

"Do you want to wait in the car? Or do you want to help start the fire?" Nic asked. It was a cool December night, and the prospect of starting a fire didn't enthuse me. "I'll stay here," I said. As he walked away, I grabbed my phone to update my roommates. It took him a couple of minutes before he came back. Enough to tell them how it was a weird date and how he's nice but I'm not sure yet. The fire was nice, warm. Two chairs were set up, side by side. Nic put a lantern on a tree branch to light our way back. It didn't take long for us to kiss under the stars. It was intense, the kind of kiss where explosions go off in the background. The scent of bonfire lingered long after we left his backyard, and as the fire died out ours didn't. He lead me from the fire pit back the house where we spent the night in the basement. Well, most of the night. I left at 3 AM because I had class the next day, not to mention my roommates were wondering where I...

When people ask how I met you, I like to answer with "online." Although that's the simplified answer, it's the truth. The long answer, we met through an app called Whisper . If you've never used Whisper it's a confession app. People post about anything and everything there. Me? I was posting about my relationship life, or lack of one probably. I don't remember what the confession was that got us talking, probably something along the lines of "just a nice girl looking for a nice guy." You say that you messaged first, although I beg to differ. That's something we still disagree about to this day. We didn't message long before you mentioned dinner. Applebee's for wings. But instead of meeting at the restaurant, you wanted to meet in a parking garage. I was skeptical, to say the least. You wanted to meet there because there were cameras so my car wouldn't get stolen or something like that. And while the cameras made me feel a littl...

Hello again! It's been a good two years since I last updated my skin care routine, and it's been a while since I told you about some of my empties - so why not combine the two. Let's start with empties. Age Perfect Cell Renewal Day Cream  by L'Oreal is a good day cream, but it doesn't absorb into my face as fast as I would like and left it feeling a little too oily than I would prefer. Probably wouldn't buy again... And now for (empty) skin care. During high school, I was one of the lucky ones who didn't have too much acne. Maybe it's partially thanks to birth control. But I was only acne prone during puberty, at which time I had bangs which I think contributed to my forehead breakouts. Once I got to college, my acne took a turn for the worse. I looked at facial mapping, watched beauty influencers on YouTube for the best products, and went to a couple dermatologists. What the dermatologists forgot to account for was my change in location. I rec...

Never will I ever step into a tanning bed. According to the Melanoma Research Foundation , as much as 90% of melanomas are caused by UV exposure - this includes both the sun and tanning beds. The WHO's IARC classifies tanning beds as a carcinogen! If you are looking for Vitamin D, you won't find it in a tanning bed. If you have a good diet, your Vitamin D levels should be fine. UVB radiation is needed for Vitamin D production, UVA is the type found in tanning beds. I have friends who have a family history of skin cancer, yet they still use tanning beds - especially in the winter. However, this can triple your risk of skin cancer! In other countries (ex. Brazil) tanning is illegal, but it's still legal here in the US. So no thanks, but I'll stick to the sun if anything. However, I did just get my first spray tan at Sun Tan City. It was my birthday and their free spray tan week, so I decided to give it a try with some friends. I wanted a glowing look, not necessaril...

Let's just put the fact out there: Donald Trump is the 2016 president-elect Am I thrilled? Not really, but here are my thought's after the past couple days #NotMyPresident - to me it's not about not accepting the results of the election. Instead, it's a sentiment that Donald Trump does not represent the people (and not just in the sense that he lost the popular vote). I would never wish for him to fail, in fact I hope for the opposite. I hope he proves me wrong But in response to the protests and the harsh sentiment towards each other... Peaceful protests are fine, great really! But don't turn into the people you were protesting against in the first place. I always thought the point of protests was to bring awareness. To tell people that being sexist, racist, homophobic, etc is wrong. If that's why you are protesting, great. But if you are protesting in order to diminish those who voted for him, stop You can't dismiss someone's fears about the...

Starting this year, I was in my first semester of Nursing. Now, I'm finishing my second. I stopped playing tennis, made more friends, and had my relationships tested. And now, I'm here to share. First of all, school is not hard. It's one of the easiest things actually. Sure there is a lot of content, but the worst part was timing. I always made time for sleep. For those students who spend sleepless nights studying or working on papers. That's not for me. I always say I need sleep to function. But it's more than that. It's to recharge, refuel, and to give my mind a break. Did I escape with a 4.0 this semester? No. But for one class I was 2 points away from getting an AB - which would make my grades A, AB, AB, AB and I can live with that. But most of all I made time for fun. Going out with friends, to different events, trying new things. Sure, being known as a book worm isn't the worst thing in the world. But, I want to be more than that. With tennis, am I...

hi everyone! so if you weren't aware, there was a " 10 Atheists' Commandments  contest" for athiests to write their own "rules." because I am on winter break, I just finished a religion course at my college and this post definitely peaked my interest and I was pleasantly surprised! all of the following "commandments" are statements I also believe in, and here's why: ~ be open-minded and be willing to alter your beliefs with new evidence if science and life has taught you anything over the course of history, it is that things change. being narrow minded will get you nowhere, especially if you are proven wrong. being open-minded doesn't make you any less strong in your beliefs, it just means you are mature enough to know that you can be wrong. ~ strive to understand what is most likely to be true, not to believe what you wish to be true though this might not be the best "rule" concerning religion, it is a good rule for life....

it's the timeless question: how do you know when you're in love? maybe it's the feeling of butterflies in your stomach when you see them pass by maybe it's the tingling feeling down your spine when you catch them looking at you the red blush that comes across your face when you can't help but smile when you look at them maybe i can't tell you what the feeling of being in love is because it's different for every person i know there's a difference between loving someone and being in love with them but here's what love is for me it's being able to do anything with them and still have a good time it's feeling at home when i'm with him it's being able to sleep in his bed and he's willing to sleep somewhere else - just because he's a gentleman that way when he's being weird and tucking me in at night, throwing me the "good pillow" just because when i wake up earlier than him and have to stay quiet beca...

it's time for a rant. i know everyone has those times. where they just want to let everything out, without fear of judgment or ridicule. well, here's mine. people look at me and i know what they see. someone who gets perfect grades, volunteers, the innocent one. but it's not true. or i guess, that's not everything. i just put on this façade to save my skin. really, i'm weak. when my nana was dying in florida, i couldn't even pick up the phone and make a call. to tell her i love her that i wish we spent more time together. i think distancing myself makes things easier - but in reality, it makes it easier to fall. and i feel so horrible that i didn't pick up that phone. i'm weak. and now, my sister is going through a hard time too. and i'm not there. i'm doing it again, distancing myself. you know what my parents said? "she thinks you're not there for her." do you hear that? it's the sound of my heart breaking. i hate that...

its valentines day again for some its an excuse to treat your girl to something nice for others its a day where you are reminded that you have somehow failed in the battle called love - that's kinda harsh i think we need to change this we blame society for all of the negativity about body image or relationships but we always forget - we are society love and relationships are hard enough without the critique of others be happy, if not for yourself today, for everyone who has someone to be happy with i am 18 and, truth be told, i am terrified about the thought of being in a relationship im scared about the possibility of hurt hurting myself and hurting others but theres a catch as well if you are in a relationship and are hurting the other person because you are cheating or doing something selfish... then leave the relationship! staying around because you don't know how to say goodbye or whatever your reason is will cause more pain in the end don't cheat but ...